Tears

Jarom 1:4

"And there are many among us who have many revelations, for they are not all stiffnecked. And as many as are not siffnecked and have faith, have communion with the Holy Spirit, which maketh manifest unto the children of men, according to their faith."

Well, I am back in Texas, so I suppose it is about time to recap.  This morning was amazing.  I got to go through the Draper Temple (open house) and see the beautiful rooms inside with Aunt Taunia and Rachel.  It's the second temple in which I've had the privilege of attending the open house, the first being the Manhattan Temple a few years ago.  There really is a different feeling inside, even before it is dedicated.  I can not wait to get endowed and start receiving even more temple blessings.  Ideally I will have that done before the year's end.  I am so stoked at that possibility.

Shortly after that, it was time to leave Utah, and say good bye.  That was one of the hardest things I've had to do in a long, long time.  I honestly did not want to go.  And as I sit here and type, I wish I were still there.  That really was one of the best, if not THE best, weekends of my life.  I didn't want it to end, knowing that I would have to fly home.  But, the best things in life aren't easy, they take struggle and growth, and this will be no different.

Some times, there are choices in life that are hard to make, and we find ourselves tempted to make the wrong decision, even when we know without a doubt what we should be doing.  It is in those moments that we need to humble ourselves and swallow our pride.  We are not on this earth to be tested about what we want our lives to become, we are here to be tested and see if we will pattern our lives after Christ's design for us.  To see if we can make spiritual and celestial decisions, in a carnal and temporal world.  To see if we can look at a choice with spiritual eyes, and from a spiritual perspective, with faith and trust in Christ as opposed to faith and trust in mankind, and often times not even faith and trust in ourselves.  For we can only be so strong, we can only be so wise, we can only be so pure if we rely on our own abilities and wisdom.  But when we pair our desires with the strength, wisdom, and holiness of God, THAT is when we are really able to accomplish things.  

"But with God, all things are possible."  I think that statement has more to do with just events in our lives.  Things such as being calm in a stressful time, building a boat, etc.  But it also has to do with mastering ourselves.  Many people think that in order to master our own self, we can only rely on our own abilities.  Well, we are flawed creatures.  We can not possibly think that we can master ourselves by ourself, that is a fallacy.  It takes the divine inspiration of God, and faith that He will guide us to be able to gain spiritual wisdom and eternal attributes.  "All things are possible" refers to such things as tough choices in life that may negatively affect people we care about, yet are the right thing to do.  Things such as changing habits for the better, daily/weekly/monthly commitments that only we know about, and so forth. It refers to any thing that is for our eternal betterment.  He wants what is best for us, and so with His guidance, anything great or small, personal or widespread, important or frivolous, is possible if we put our trust in Him as opposed to relying on our own strength and wisdom.

"For behold, this is my work and my glory - to bring to pass the immortality and eternal life of man."